Getting off of suboxone. I’m 38 and have a 19 year old and a one year old. I just left my 13 year relationship with their father because he is a covert narcissist and has verbally and mentally and emotionally tortured me till I was no longer a person with any kind of identity or self worth. I knew my boys deserved better and I finally got the courage up to leave him. 
About 8 years ago I got off alcohol by myself after rehabs didn’t work and he had a prescription for suboxone because he was previously a heroine user. I never was and he said this is what he took too stop using and it will make me feel better cause I was off alcohol but still felt really terrible. If I had even an ounce of a clue how suboxone worked and how addictive it was I would have NEVER ever tried it in the first place but I trusted him and was naive and now with no prescription and I left him and I have two kids to take care of and my mom found out she has terminal cancer and told me if I was on anything I wasn’t telling her she would be devistated 
I don’t k ow what to do. I need someone to help me please I hope to hear back sincerely Jen 