My methadone clinic has been doing everything they can to keep me on methadone. They make me experience miserable, it’s triggering being around everyone, I just had a baby and that environment isn’t conducive to my recovery. I have been clean over a year and they are accusing me of using all kinds of drugs trying to make me come in every day again. I haven’t used since January 2019. I need help to get out of this toxic situation I’ve never been so sick with anxiety; I feel so stuck. If I could leave that clinic and never go back I would but I can’t because I could die from this government medication and this system that has ruined my entire life. I’m in tears just writing this, please help me. 