After my brother attempted to detox of suboxone himself. Which lead to a relapse and died. I made the decision to go impatient. I went through hell for 2wks of not sleeping and losing so much weight i looked like a skeleton. I manage to stay the course for 3mos before i went back home to Ohio and relapsed one time. Scared the shit out of me so I Went to treatment here. I remember I didnt even want to get high. Wasnt my motivation for the relapse. I just didnt want to feel sick another day. Was a full year before i felt close to normal.. stayed off it for 4.5 years. After having my daughter, i suffered severe post partum depression and back issues. To avoid being prescribed narcotics for pain or even possibility id use to escape i was put back on suboxone. Its been 4 years. I cant continue to suffer in this imprisonment of being controlled and dependent.. but i know i cant take a year off like last time. This is my only option. 