I go to bell eve to receive all of my medications. I have since December of 2018. I went from taking 3-8mg a day to 1mg a day (trying to get off of it) in December 2019 and I could not function, my withdraw symptoms were super bad. I have 2 kids who are 6 and 4, which is the only reason I went from Oxy to Suboxone. I wanted to maintain function because I had no way to go to rehab or any family support. 
This most recent time, I was in training for 2 weeks, 8hrs a day, for my new job. I do not know what happened, but in those 2 weeks somehow I lost (or someone close to me stole it) 1/2 of my medication. That has never ever happened to me before. I looked everywhere, while crying my eyes out, and I never found them. I called the clinic I go to and told them what happened, the receptionist wouldn't even speak to the doctor for me. I finally got the doctor to send me in medication for withdraw symptoms yesterday (14th), but they do not help very much. I have to wait until the 20th of October to have them refilled. I have been out since the 11th of October. I never once misused this drug because I truly thought it saved me from the endless drug cycle I was in, I never realized I was just going from one drug to another drug. 
My sobriety is VERY important to me and with how I feel right now, I would do anything just to be able to feel better and function normally and that worries me. 