Me and my boyfriend are in active addiction to heroin and methadone. We are 27 and have been stuck doing this for our entire adult life with countless attempts to get clean all of which were unsuccessful. We have tried everything and are desperate for help. We have an 8 year old son who has been waiting for mom and dad for the last 4 years since we lost custody of him. Everyday hoping that one day we can get him back. We need our son and he needs us, I can't imagine us continuing to do this and never getting him back  losing him completely. I have horrible nightmares about it. We are so tired of feeling so helpless. We need help. We need something different.