After being given two days a week unsupervised time with my daughter, I had an incident about a year into it with something that I didn’t know what a benzo and I blacked out while taking care of her and from what I understand,  my dad showed up and it went really poorly and I had to go back to court to see if I could keep my time with her. For three weeks until that court date, I planned out very specifically what I’d do.m, when I’d do it and what I wanted to do before hand and stuff. I didn’t lose my time but I had to now drug test twice weekly to continue the visits, which were like seventy a test and it was so expensive that I couldn’t afford to stay consistently able to drug test and I tried to OD because i felt like I was going to ruin my kids life by being so inconsistent there.