I need help getting staying off  and staying off opiates. I have been on and off opiates for 17 years. the only time I went completely clean was (2005-2007) this was while I was pregnant or Brest feeding . I want to give my children the mother they deserve and I want to be. I have fought this fight alone for so many years. I don't want to suffer with the sadness and depression that comes with the detox i have gotten through the sickness part many many times but somehow always seem to go back so I wont feel the weakness sadness and depression that follows.