I only get tempted to go back on the medication because it makes me not feel emotionally two of my three children are addicts and one I've had to bring back eight times and once I almost lost them was almost too late.
Before covid I was attending AA 5 days a week had a sponsor still have my sponsor but I haven't been honest with her about going back on the opiates it was just too much of a struggle in the detox because they wouldn't give me Librium because of the Xanax and even when I left there after a week I was miserable and uncomfortable and all the symptoms of withdrawal with kicking in especially anxiety I've had multiple surgeries since 2004 and each time it just got harder and harder to come off of the medication