I was addicted to oxycodone. I have been on Suboxone for 12 years without any use of opioids during that time. I dont always take Suboxone as prescribed and it dictates my life like oxy did. Withdrawal is terrible when I don't take it. I have gone as much as a week without it and withdrawal doesn't improve. I have mental health issues along with addiction. I want to be able to focus on those problems without the constant dark cloud of being physically addicted. I am told by addiction counselors I dont qualify for inpatient rehab and told by mental health professionals I need to treat addiction or mental health treatment is ineffective.  I feel stuck and I think without physical addiction I have hope of improving my life. 