I had been on and off pain killers since 2003 when my back began hurting and for 10 years I suffered many many episodes where my back would go out and I wouldn’t be able to walk due to the muscle spasms . In 2013 I had a fusion between L4-5 and since then have been on oxycodone and morphine along with nsaids . I suffer back pain and severe pain down my left front thigh and as of late my left hip is beginning to hurt and I’m having excrutuating pain in my hip down back of my left leg and into my knee. I am sick of pain and I am sick of taking these drugs. I also take Effexor and clonazapam due to severe anxiety. I want my life back and I want to life out the rest of my years off of these drugs and at least try holistic forms of therapy for pain instead of medicating myself. I am also trapped meaning I can’t travel for long term visits because of the restrictions now on the pain killers. This is just no way to live and not fair to my significant other. I am 62 yrs old and how long can one live like this? Thank you for your time in reading this! 