I have been on Methadone and Xanax, clonapin  for almost all my life. I started taking  pain pills and clonapin  when I was 17 from there it's been on and off. I went to a rehab in 2017 got out 2019. I relapse  in2021 back on methadone  and Xanax.  I can do rehab but the withdrawals are so bad. I don't  have lots of money.  But I know  I  caused damage  because  I  feel somewhat  that I can't  feel happy anymore.  Can y'all  help and if so I will still go thru withdrawal right.