Cravings to me are the worst. If I get in my head I need to use, I will find a way no matter what. Does not matter if I have no money, no vehicle, someone watching me trying to help me get sober. Once I am sober for a few months I think I will not even think of getting high. I've only been sober for a long period once (2017-2020). However me staying sober was a product of Federal Probation for those 3 years. They were 3 amazing years though.