I honestly did not understand what the use of the narcotics was doing to me -  I just stopped taking them one day which landed me in the hospital...they said, just start taking them again and see your doctor...well I did, then 2 days later, I stopped again because I just wanted off of them!  So it happened again, I landed back in the hospital and this time Dr. Harris came in and told me he would give me Ativan for a few days and then to take buspirone 10 milligrams and escitalopram 20 milligrams...that threw me back in to withdrawals and I gave up and could not stop taking the oxycodone....