I have currently been on Suboxone off and on for the last 5-6 years, during the small amount of time I was off subs I was back on heroin. Before suboxone I was on heroin for maybe 4 months but my life had went downhill drastically and I k ew I would die if I didn't get off of it quickly. So my family took me to the suboxone clinic the same day I expressed wanting to be done with heroin. I didn't realize at the time tht I would be even more addicted to suboxone and have even worse withdrawals then what I had with heroin. I've since tried to kicked suboxone twice and each time resulted in me using heroin again the the pattern continued in the same manner. Today I have lowered my dosage of suboxone from a whole 8mg pill a day to a quarter pill a day occasionally ill take another small piece in the evening if I'm feeling what I refer to as "weird" where I have paranoia, feel like im not myself at all and it's hard to function without it, actually it's almost impossible to function without it. I don't want this burden anymore. I'm a mother of 3 boys and I can't even get out of bed until I've taken the suboxone and it kicks in so if I wake up to something that has come up and needs immediate attention well then it's surely to get neglected until I take the sub and wait usually 20-45 mins for it to kick in and I feel like myself again which is absolutely inconvenient for not just myself but my family and working in a public job is almost certainly out of the question. I just want to feel and be myself again the me before addiction took over my life.