I have been an opiate addict for half of my life. I started using prescription painkillers at the age of 15, which consisted of hydrocodone and rapidly developed to oxycontin, morphine, oxymorphone, oxycodone, and other higher level prescription narcotics. Within 6 months I discovered that heroin was not only cheaper, but it was more powerful than half the prescription drugs I was use to taking. I went from smoking it to injecting it in a matter of weeks. Since then I have had ups and downs with my addiction. Only achieving sobriety for brief lengths of time. Sometimes 2 weeks. Sometimes 9 months. But always coming back to it because I never could really feel normal in sobriety. I was always suffering from post acute withdrawal symptoms. Even at the longest length of sobriety I experienced, which was 11 months, I would have trouble sleeping, have high anxiety and depression, stomach problems, aches and pains, and the ever daunting cravings for one last use..... I am now 30 years old, I live in poverty, I lost contact with my children whom I miss so very much, I'm in a terrible divorce battle, and I have never felt so lonely and isolated. Please, please help me get my life back together. Please, help me be normal again. I can't even remember a time when I felt like myself anymore because of opiates. I just want to be a father and a hard working american citizen. I want to show my late and deceased mother that I am not lost in addiction and I want to show her that I am going to be ok from the other side of the heavens. I need help. And this seems to be what I am willing to try since all other recovery treatments have failed. Thanks for your consideration. Robert R. Steele. 