I been trying for 30 years..I was on opiates in my 20s that kept going due to multiple surgeries. In my 40s, a Dr gave me methadone which I though would help. Then Ultram ( THE WORST DRUG EVER) That went on for years until he cut me off, no notice, just bye bye..so I have a guy that sells methadone at 30 dollars a 40 mg disc..and here I am, married 34 years to a career cop and he's in distress over all this. I lost all my teeth, my sanity, my family and friends cuz I'm ALWAYS SICK AF!!.I took VIVITROL right after my rapid detox that had life threatening side effects for me..I can't take subs again, I tried and everything makes the w/d way worse. I took nothing for a whole week and tried bups but I just got sicker. IS THERE ANY HOPE FOR A 57 YEAR WOMAN WHO JUST DESPARETLY WANTS TO LIVE LIFE???