I have been to treatment 8 or 9 times and had an issue with chronic relapses for years. Last year I had over 5 years free of all substances but struggled from severe PTSD and a disregulated nervous system. I had lost my dog, dad to suicide and fiance all in the month of June 21. I used heavily for 6 months afterwards  and then went to treatment in November 21. I have found that I always end up in the same position regardless of the  years of SE and EMDR therapy and genuine work on myself. The PTSD and disregulation in my nervous system has always been the root cause of my drug use. I recently had a SGB injection which was a wonderful breakthrough in my recovery. It has allowed me the capacity to actually focus on my therapy and be calm enough to focus on the work I need to be doing for trauma resolution. I had been subscribed Suboxone in January 2022 not for my detox symptoms but it helped me function and helped me cope with the depression I am experiencing. I had a relapse 2 weeks ago after trying to detox from the Suboxone.  I have been addicted to opiates for years, any time I have not been on opiates, I have struggled with day to day expectations, depression, and anxiety. Opiates have always helped in coping with everything. I am willing to try anything to go back to the person I was before I had ever was prescribed oxycodone 