I am 38 yrs old and recently married. I hold a steady job and always have. 
My addiction presented itself in my early 20's with taking 1-2 vicodin/day. Turned into and up to 80 mg of oxy. Tried Methadone and tapered off. Somehow ended up on suboxone from my doctor for couple years and tapered off completely. Around age 30-35 I was clean but had pain from over working at my job. Had injury and wouldn't take pain meds so I took some suboxone to help with pain off and on til I was hooked again. Been on 8-10mgs last 2 years and having hardest time even tapering. I developed anxiety issue over last few years and its made it hard. Want to move on with my life and just waNt to reset and start feeling better. I tried meditation etc..which helps at times but not enough. Thanks for your time.