I am 32 years old and have been trying to get off opioid since I first tried oxytcontin when i was 16 or 17. I have been to over 20 detox and 30 day+ inpatient rehab centers in that time and only managed to stay clean 1 time for about 5 months. I have also done ibogain 3-4 times which helped detox basically overnight but I never managed to stay clean afterwards. I have basically ruined all my viens and made it very difficult to even get blood drawn. I am desperate to get clean and to get my brain back in balance. I currently live in my parents basement and can easily go days without going upstairs. I have 0 friends and don't talk to anyone except my parents. I find my self crying over the simplest things. I'm tired of being alone and sad all the time. One of my biggest issues is social anxiety to the point where I Recently started shaving my own head so I don't have to go to the barber shop and be around ppl. Its getting worse and worse and I avoid ppl best I can. If a number calls my phone that isn't stored in it then I don't answer and then I'll even avoid my voicemail for weeks anxious it may be something that'll make me uncomfortable. I feel like I'm walking
On eggshells all the time and have so much anxiety that my hair is litterally almost completely gray an I'm only 32. I am trying  to find a good therapist to help me with all this and will hopefully have one before I come to ANR so that they can work with me during and after this process. I wanna make sure I have a good plan to keep moving forward once I'm done at ANR. I would greatly appreciate help as soon as possible.

 Thank you!
