I want to become the person I was before the addiction and crutch. It started with a horrible ATV accident. I was hurt pretty badly and given Vicodin for the pain. Then i was taking them to function which controlled my life as I needed more and more taking about 12 of the green 10mg hydrocodone pills a day. I was fed up and went to a methadone clinic to try to help get me off but it was back and forth with that and am stuck on methadone now. I have major depression, and anxiety that I will try to go to something else even worse than methadone or the pain pills. I just want to be done with it all. 