I last attended a residential rehab treatment in the fall of 2017.  I was able to remain sober and clean from opiates for a couple of years but my anxiety and lack of desire to do anything led me to the use of methamphetamines so that I would have the energy and drive to undertake life activities.   Eventually I began using opiates again and I am so scared of stopping despite my desire and need to quit immediately.  I want to be clean so that I can spend time with my kids and not worry about where my opiates are or how I am going to get them.  