For the last about 6 months I honestly don't even know if I've been doing Fentanyl or Heroin some of the times... I think I know most of the time just by the way its breaks down alone, the way it feels/smells/tastes when its being snorted(I know that's probably weird), and then the feeling/sensation... I probably haven't been high in 4 months... I don't do alot probably between.  .15-.3 a day and at the most a half a gram... I'm 39 now will be 40 in 2 weeks and this is the first time I've tried either a far as names go... In my mid to late 20s maybe until 31ish I was on pain pills norcos, morphine, ocycontin... The first time I quit I started but didn't finish suboxone on my own with online research ... I know not very smart... I moved while taking suboxone so basically went cold turkey, going from Illinois to Arkansas in the heat wave of summer, going thru withdrawals, and went straight to work the 2nd day there doing flooring... Came back not much later hanging out same girls, same ish, back to popping pills on and off, until one of the girls I was with ended up getting pregnant with my son... So I listened to everyone and got on the worst thing to ever happen to me drug-wise in my life methadone... He was born in 2014 and I was still on methadone got in trouble in 2016 between then and March of 2019 I did 19 months in jail and prison, until about 5 or 6 months ago I stayed "clean" I met the girl I'm with now in August of 2020 and we broke up around September to October is got depressed started hanging out with whoever wanted to and did whatever was around and then I met Fentanyl and Heroin and I been trying to get clean for the past 3-4 months but I don't want to go thru no in patient out patient ween down bullshit... Sorry... But that's not for me in can't sit in a circle and sing cumbaya!!! I do want counseling for a few things, my drugs and alcohol addiction, and me and my girlfriend want to do couple counseling for the things we can't agree on, or listen to anyone who's in our family... I know that was probably alot but I just wanted to be as forward as possible about who I am... I have my son who will be 8 this summer, my girlfriend who I already have bought an engagement ring for, and she has a 10 year old, and a 4 yr old who I've helped raise since she was 2, that I look at as my daughters especially the 4 yr old because her dad is gone... I want my life back I was doing good until I hit a depression phase I couldn't cope with alone especially as a drug addict... I seen this site and read on it for a little bit and I'm very interested in finding out more information... So if you are able to help me in any way I'd like to learn how... Sorry that was so much information that wasn't asked for... But thank you and have a good day...