I was prescribed 120mg of oxycodone daily for about 4 years. After being taken off oxycodone abruptly, I had sever withdrawals as I was taking much more after becoming opioid dependent. I then began taking what I thought were oxycodone pills but were instead “fake pills,” which were made of fentanyl and other unknown drugs. These pills were admittedly much stronger than a single 30mg oxycodone pill, and I began taking 20-30 a day. I then wanted to notice how much oxycodone this may be equivalent to. I had to take 600+mg of oxycodone in a 24hr period in order to feel “normal.” I have tried to quit on numerous occasions at home by myself with the help of suboxone. I can now not wait the time required before using suboxone as withdrawals take effect extremely fast and are very uncomfortable to say the least. I always had immediate cravings within 3 to 4 days WHEN I could stay off opiates for long enough to take suboxone. I am now almost 5 years into a daily habit of very strong opiates . Unfortunately I have become opioid dependent and no longer feel euphoria at all. I medicate in order to not feel physical withdrawals, however I no longer ever feel “normal.” I can’t feel “happiness,” which I once I did. This is a terrible feeling with or without opiates as I feel as if I have “burned out,” my receptors and am extremely lethargic yet I can’t sleep. There is more to my personal “story of addiction,” and now wish I never took opiates.