I have been going through a vicious cycle of opiate abuse for the last 12 years. I have tried several different types of treatment, but none have lead to long-term recovery or an ability to obtain a life of normalcy and hapiness, regardless of my strong desire to do so. I am in serious need of help. My life is a constant struggle of being in physical and mental pain, and putting my loved ones in anguish by witnessing my struggles. I am in desperate need of help.