Our 21 y.o. daughter, Solveig, died last August and ?I I was already having an extremely difficult time dealing with the whole covid/shutdown/not getting to work and worrying about $ thing and had a history of addiction to pain meds because of vicious headaches for years due to a brain tumor that had been there over a decade but I was with Kaiser at the time and suffered 5 years of their incompetence and had over 10 years clean at that time and didn't use. Then this last August i found my 52 y.o., very fit husband dead in bed at 4.15 in the morning qnd went right to heroin then once it was quite a bit stronger and tasted better no coughing and I got high only to find that it was fentanyl. So I do that everyday.  I can't take the pain of this shit life I don't care about anything anymore I don't even recycle anymore. IDK what your treatment is other than what I've read but my brain says I should investigate even though I'd rather just die already