I detoxed off methadone in April. Transitioned to Suboxone... Long story short my prescription was stolen I started using and I can't get back on it. I keep putting myself in percipitated withdrawal. I am alone no one knows I'm going threw it. I have kicked on jail house floors and it has been easier than this. It gets so bad I loose all bodily function and can not clean it up. 6 months ago I was in college and working. Now I am so stuck. I have lost 37 people since 2017. I don't know why I am still alive but if I am going to live I need help. The last 2 months I use for a few days then I go as long as I can detoxing then I take Suboxone and I have gone into serious percipitated withdrawal 4 times. My body, mind, spirit cannot handle it anymore. I have insurance and I can tap into cash if nessesarry. Please I am begging. It's probably a day late n a dollar short but I am scared. Thank you for reading this.