I have a problem with Kratom.  I have been on and off of Kratom several years (5-6 years).  I was off after rapide detox for 2 years.  I started havign significant pain issues with my neck, which became surgical with spinal cord compression but, due to COVID the surgical was procedure was cancelled.  I was started on norco as needed but, worried if I used it before I had surgery it wouldn't be effective after surgery.  Decided to use Kratom as for 5 days then I would stop and let the receptor clear out before surgery.  Unfornatuely, all elective surgeries were cancelled for six months.  The giving kratom up in 5 days also didn't happen.  I have been on it this time for a little over one year.  I did go inpatient for detox, this time it was the regular cookie cutter detox within a week of getting out the cravings were so strong I caved.  I am terrified I will never see a day without it.  I am losing myself and I feel like I am losing my family.  We simply cannot keep going on this path.