I have a sex addiction and I’m a lesbian and this happened after my second husband left me and I will do anything to be with the married man, and my friends know that I am a lesbian. I’m also an escort to a married man  and I have been for several years. I’m aware that he’s involved with a woman that works for him and has been for many years. At one time she tried to be my friend, but I’m not smart enough to know I was being fooled by both of them. He tried to help me become straight again. He tells me to participate with him and other women that are willing, but those women have more to offer than I do I’m a burden, uneducated, classless and I complain often to him about the single or married women he dates.
I lack etiquette skills that comes naturally to others, I need improvements.  I always do what I’m told. He requires me to participate in his activities with the married woman and I agreed to it because he’s paying my monthly rent.  He dates two or more women including me at the same time but on different days. It’s an ongoing routine but right before it he tells me I’m better than those women and I know he’s only saying those things to get me to do what he wants me to do upon demand. I know that I’m not better.  I’m 73 years old and too old for this behavior and so is he. I’m a Grandmother. Anyone he compares me to are not my age and I have a difficult time competing with women my age and with women that are not my age. I can’t support myself and  he supports me the wife and the married woman he’s dating. We shared the same type of living arrangements I once had when my second spouse was alive. The married woman is an escort.  I’m too old to be compared to anyone much younger. I’ve been receiving money as an escort regularly at 72  to remain on call to him.  I will and have done anything to keep this business open.  He’s still a married man because I have never seen divorce papers and he’s listed as married. He expects me to help him get other women and every time he does I get pushed aside,  I’m  a doormat. 
I’m  unattractive and extremely overweight and I’m not capable of learning new skills especially compared to women my age or even women that are not my age.  No woman wants to do what I’m doing with him, and he continues to expect me to do it and I do. I owe him a lot of money over the years for paying my rent before I began being his escort. Since I’ll never be able to pay back all of the money, I have to do what I’m told. I’m self employed and my business is struggling and it has been for many years.   Help me with this addiction because I have and will do anything to keep him. 