I have been physically dependent on opioids for almost 20 years. About 10 years ago I started my process of going to the clinic for maintenance medication first being prescribed Suboxone and a way too high dose ultimately increased my dependency and tolerance to opiates. After struggling to stay clean and getting some clean time I decided I wanted to come off Suboxone but none of the clinics would take me any lower than 2 mg. I decided to cut it lower and lower till I finally came completely off of it that lasted approximately 2 months all of which time my brain never seems normal I then began to relapse and almost died four times because of all the crazy stuff that's in Street opioids. For the last 4 years I have been taking methadone at 105 mg and I've seen many health issues occur including weight gain grinding teeth shortness of temper insomnia etc. I absolutely hate this medication but I don't know how to get off and have the full capacity of my brain as I once did. I did not start this opiate process on the street I was prescribed Percocets and oxycontin starting at the age of 15. Please help