I attempted to become a Methadone patient at CODA clinic in Portland Oregon.  They refused to release my medical records or prescribe me a guest does while I was out of Oregon state February 23rd-March 2nd, which left me no option besides visiting the emergency room in New Mexico where I was able to get a dose of 45mg of methadone which did not help withdrawals and sickness. I smoked 30mg "blues" oxycodone to help with withdrawals and upon my return to Oregon, continued smoking these pills or using heroin to avoid withdrawal.  Previous recent attempts at withdrawal/ transitions back to Suboxone occurred over the course of the past 6 months, which were unsuccessful due to withdraw symptoms and extreme sickness.