I was being weaned down by my pain management doctor for being tolerant to the medicine and being short on my pill count.  I was at 240 mg of oxycodone per day to get relief.  He started a taper down from 180 mg per day in October, 2020, and I had so much difficulty with it, that I began to use alcohol to ease my symptoms.  I use Gabapentin also, which makes my legs swell badly and causes a lot of water weight.  I can't eat regular meals, because I will withdrawal.  The doctor was going to keep me at 60mg per day once I reached that amount, but he didn't do that.  I asked him if he could please keep me at that amount, because he started to taper me faster and my pain came back.  He said to suck up the pain.  He gave me half of my medicine this time and said he is ripping the bandage off and goodbye, call me if you feel better and need something else.