I have been addicted to street drugs for a couple years now. I got clean for 9 months when I got pregnant with my son and I had to bury him before I could even get to hear him cry. I was 37 weeks pregnant when a knot cut his oxygen off and he suffocated inside me. Ever since I left the hospital last year that's all I think about unless I get high. I want to put it down but the pain is far worse than the addiction. 