I do not get high. I have zero psychological cravings for something I've never experienced. This is important to understand and accept. I've never been drunk or high in my life. I've never used pot or any illicit drug. Friends have related to me what they feel when taking opioids or smoking pot.  I try to understand but I can't relate. All my opioids have been Rx.  I keep detailed records and could show anyone a graph of every single opioid dose I've taken since 5/5/2005.   My withdrawal symptoms are primarily physiological.    I do "crave" relief from constant widespread pain that includes hypersensitivity to pressure.  I feel as if I'm being crushed.  My extremities throb and I can actually feel the "wave" of blood flow with every beat of my heart, expanding from my chest to my hands, feet, and head (including throbbing in my eyes, which I can sometimes even SEE around the periphery of my visual field).  I want this feeling and the pain to go away and to feel normal -- forget about feeling good or high.