NEED HELP!! REHABS....COMFORT MEDICINES...JAILS AN RELAPSES AFTER RELAPSES AND IM DONE!! IM SO SICK OF LOSING EVERYTHING OVER AND OVER! LOST RIGHTS TO MY ONLY BABY NOT LONG AFTER I LOST HIS FATHER... TIRED OF MAKING MYSELF BELIEVE THERES EXCUSES AN GUILT THAT KEEPS ME MISERABLE!! 2010 I FIRST STARTED AN IM SICK OF MISERY SICK OF THIS LIFE FEELING LIKE I EVERYDAY I HAVE TO MAKE SURE I CAN SURVIVE...JUST PLEASE... IF IT WASNT SO PAINFUL TO DETOX I WOULD DO IT IN A HEART BEAT BUT IVE TRIED OVER AN OVER...I NEED OFF AN I WANT OFF! I WANT A LIFE...JUST PLEASE TELL ME HOW...I KNOW THOSE RELAPSES ARE OVER I DONT CARE HOW MANY TIMES I PROMISED AND SWORE!! I NEED THIS TO END!!