I build and climb cell phone towers for a living the last 22 years. 15 years ago I had a minor fall and injured my back pretty good. I had never taken a pain pill a day in my life. I had never heard of them. I was put on 20 mg oxycodone daily by a neurosurgeon. Over 6 months I would have to raise my dose due to getting used to the dosing. At the 6 month point the doctor just said one appointment “ok you are ready to transfer to physical therapy”. He took me straight off the pain meds that day and over the next 2 weeks I was freaking out and feeling like I never had before. I now know it was with drawl. I worked with a guy who noticed it and he started getting me Vicodin and Percocet off the street. Over the next 8 years I spiraled. I got felonies for forging prescriptions when I couldn’t get medication. I was on OxyContin taking up to 3- 80mg OxyContin a day crushed up. I had tried rehabs, NA/AA, halfway house, went to prison for 3 years. I was sober in prison and I wasn’t out 6 months before I convinced myself I could take pain meds recreationally and control it. I spiraled again for 2 years. Then I found Suboxone. I got the same story everyone else does. I’ll be on it for no more than a year then weaned off. Now 8 plus years later I’m still taking it and some days convince myself my stresses and life problems can be made tolerable by taking extra suboxone here or there. But I know it does nothing good. I am at the point I want to be done with depending on any medication to live my life. I have avoided stopping opiates for years for the same reason everyone else does. I don’t want to go through the horrible physical and mental withdrawal that comes with it. Then my wife found ANR on the internet and it seemed to good to be true. But we have researched and are ready to take the next step.