itll start speraddically, then go to the point i cant focus pon anmything else. ivwe been out onbond while on probation, knowing that one little bit is giving my life away for years and still, sneak out and shootup , over dose, hospitsl, run away before the cops come and od again when i finally get to the dope house cause the narcain made me feel sick like the first day all over again. im hopeless, and didnt care ever, but at this point i stare at photos of my family im about to lose over my addiction, and i cry and get high and wake up falling over and do it again, i feel like im gonna die i really do i dont feel well but i feel worse when im sick, but i dont know....