hi my name is josh, I have spent much time trying to find a place that gives me the feeling of hope. I have struggled with opiates for the past 3 years on and off, I have spent loads of money on this addiction that I no longer can afford. Besides the money that has been spent on this terrible drug it has also been spent on treatments that have not seemed to work for me. I have lost my job as a electrician, I have spent all of my savings and I have sadly lost close to 3 years of my children's lives growing up because my ex will not allow me to see them due to the drug use. I have spent the time and money on rehab I have been to passages Malibu there facility in port Hueneme and also there facility in Santa Monica both here in California. I have also been to Mexico and did the ibogaine treatment which was good but I did not get the full affect due to the not so regulated type of care they have there sadly. I have learned from my mistakes and seen what triggers me and puts me back on this terrible stuff, a big one was alcohol and I know now that I need to be 100 % sober for me to make this sober life work I have not known SOBER since I was about 13 years old. All I want is my life back with my kids and my who is now leaving me because my addiction. She has seen me go from a young father who was extremely driven and wanted to be better then his parents and make them proud while his biggest motivation is my kids I worked 70 hours a week on avg as a electrician and went to school at night, she has slowly watched me lose everything and saw what depression is really like some days I can't even get out of bed because im so unhappy with everything I have became. I used to be the person everyone wanted around because I could make everyone laugh and always uplifting with a big smile. im 29 years old and I want to turn my life around and be the man im supposed to be for myself, my kids, and my wife. I would get up out of this bed and go to your facility right now if I could. But sadly I do not have the funds, im not sure what the cost is but I know I don't have much. if there is anyway you guys give scholarships of some sort please consider me. I will be a SUCCESS story for this treatment and me and my family and kids would be never ending grateful for this opportunity. if you guys do not do scholarships is there any other programs or opportunities you guys may offer for someone in my position.

thank you so much and God bless,
josh