Attempted an at home withdrawal with the aid of comfort meds, however, this was my first experience with withdrawals from fentanyl being the primary opioid of use (as opposed to non-cut heroin in the past), And the withdrawals were so severe and lasted for so long that I ended up deciding to go to a methadone clinic for maintenance therapy out of desperation. I started on methadone, and it has helped a bit, however going on it backfired a bit, because I quickly realized that for whatever reason, the methadone does not seem to fully mitigate with withdrawal symptoms caused by the amount of fentanyl I was doing. In order to completely ease the discomfort I was in, I ended up using smaller amounts of fentanyl on top of the methadone, which is what I have been having to do ever since. Unfortunately I ended up just causing a bigger problem and have increased my tolerance significantly due to being on the daily dose of methadone, and now also using fentanyl on top of it. Being on the methadone, I do at least avoid full blown withdrawals, and it has made life slightly more manageable. But I am still constantly craving, and still using fentanyl on top of my maintenance med. as it seems methadone does not successfully fully block the desirable effects of fentanyl, nor does it completely mitigate all of the withdrawal symptoms of fentanyl, which has left me in a very miserable situation, as I am now completely dependent on the methadone clinic, but I must also continue to use street fentanyl whenever possible because when just on methadone I still experience quite a bit of withdrawal. I am desperate to be completely free of all opiates. I have been through full blown withdrawal so many times, I honestly dont know if I can handle the traumatic experience of going through another, and the idea of coming off of both methadone, and fentanyl has me very, very scared to even attempt it. 