I don't crave heroin at all actually to be honest. The only time I do it is just to stop being sick. I don't even do it anymore to get high I just do it to not go threw withdrawals with everything I have been dealing with in my life. I lost my fiancee to suicide Oct 29th after we got into a little argument I came back inside to find him hanging from our bathroom door. I then moved in with my mother who was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer to help her , i basically her hocpis nurse. I woke up on Sept 18th. 2020 to fined her dead as well. Then on Oct 8th of 2020 I said goodbye to my Step father who basically was my dad , so I could take my daughter to school. When I returned 20mins later I also found him dead on the living room floor death unknown . Plus last but not least had to put my dog down the very next day because she was old and not well. Now her baby that I also have has breast cancer and there is nothing the vet can do for her so I'm gonna have to make that decision again. I just don't think my mind right now can also go threw withdrawals I'm scared if I attempted it my depression my become unbearable and out of my control.