I have been taking dilaudid on and off since 1990. I periodically take myself off for long periods of time, a year. The last time I did this, life was not worth living, service. I was not living, I was waiting to die, the pain I feel without them is so severe.  I feel energized when on them and high functioning by all standards, people think I am off them when I am taking them and off them when I am taking them, doctors, friends, family. I was placed on Fentanyl patches several years ago, with the Dilaudid again the same results, no sedation, I am able to think clearly and am at a higher functioning level. My pain is multifocal:in stead of finishing this diatribe. I want to talk to someone. I have 5 different things that cause me to be very Hypercoagulable. I have no idea how to physically and I safely stop taking the fentanyl patches the last two times I stopped they Dilaudid I had no withdrawal symptoms except for a little jitteriness. I want to know more about this program I was a nursing supervisor at Dartmouth Hitchcock Medical Center it’s important that I do not stress in my body mentally or physically so that I do not start developing any more blood clots Please have someone call me as soon as possible my number is 830-358-8482. 