I have been addicted to opiates since I was 18 years old,  I am to turn 40 this year I have been on methadone for the past 11 years as I have tried everything to get away from opiates I've used both subutex and suboxone..  I've been to countless rehabilitation facilities over the course of my life. I have come down from a 180 mg to 35 mg which I'm currently at now. It's been a very long journey for me and I am just ready for it to be over. I'm ready to smell the flowers for what they really are see my art that I love For what it really is I'm tired of this haze that hangs over me. It's extremely depressing I have children that I want to play with and I want to do things with I wanna go on vacation I'm a prisoner and I am  Truly ready to just be done with that part of my life I have gotten clean off of every drug that I've ever used and never knew what real addiction was until I fall in love with opiates And now I'm just tired, sick and tired of being sick and tired.  Could you please get back to me? Thank u