Opioid addiction off and on more on for over 12-15years! Did subtext over 9yrs straight then methadone recently relapsed unfortunately death of mother after months taking care her stroke patient out nowhere with absolutely no family support for her or myself the entire time. Had prosecute father my child after found out sexual abuse happened...then lost everything worth $ and sentimental of mine and my mothers due to trusting another bad descion for boyfriend.  Ontop severe depression, anxiety, stenosis of spine etc. Also had situation October b4 last where I ended up drugged and rapped captive for 4days and nights. Basically ALOT trauma in my life and was strong throughout it all only taking subtext or methadone whichever was on during that time frame at clinic then for whatever reasons recently decided relapse and currently in that stage more disappointed in myself than ever now because was clean staying clean now have redue everything already done and did for years..when withdraw its BAD woke up once in hospital cause had seizures due withdraws and small stroke..scared now and all alone my mother was all had..she was unfortunately rapped in 83 which is how I came about..need help to successfully get off drugs Opioid FOREVER and stay off .been researching ur system praying works and maybe I can qualify!