I've been on methadone since 2010, 11 years so far.. Every attempt husband a horrific experience. I've tried cold turkey and titrating down myself. I went to a medical detox that was a total joke. They had no idea what they were doing as far as administering detox medications and because of their incompetence I went into full blown precipitated withdraw and had a seizure with no medical assistance while at the facility. They did not send me home with the prescribed medications coming from the local pharmacy and by the time I got halfway home I was in withdrawls once again. I started medicating with opiates the very same day and ended up getting back on the methadone program that week.   I am so sick of living with this.  Unlock on the medication because I need it for my recovery anymore, I'm on it so why don't get sick and possibly die. I can't put my husband and children through seeing me detox violently on my own in our home for God knows how long. I'd say 6 months in my specific situation.  I want my life back. I don't even know who I really am as a person because I've been on it for so long. It waz the worst decision I ever made in my entire life hands down.