I've been addicted to chewing hydrocodone over 15 years and I'm struggling my husband is out of town alot I have 2 kids 4 dogs like the running and housework never ends I can't seem to kick this no matter how wrong i know it is I can spend $1000 on 120 pks and it's gone in less than a week I don't even know who I am sober but the anxiety despair depression hopelessness feeling like I'm being selfish although it's not my true nature the fact we are in debt it's all because of me I need help for my family and I I want to be normal not take a prescription pain med to make me "feel normal" although I know there's not one normal thing about this!