Suboxone was prescribed I think it was 12mg, I was only taking half, and was weening myself off slowly. I got pregnant and was prescribed subutex, I was down to about 1.5-2 mg of the subutex (weening myself) and after birth I was completely off. Fast forward a few months I opened my own business with baby in tow, pushed myself to major postpartum depression, was prescribed several different antidepressants till we finally found the right one. Took for about 7 months+ and weened myself off of the medication. About a year later I slowly Ended up falling back onto this struggle with the roxicodones, trying to get better myself but only end up getting worse. I’m so ashamed and I’m so scared. I’ve noticed my anxiety is at an all time high lately, I’m literally shaking and crying texting this. I’m just so ready to be a better me for my family.  