I successfully tapered off of methadone when I was much much younger once before.  I have been on the methadone program for many years now. I am on Phase 6. Which means I have earned their trust with clean U/A's for the past 5 years. Not that long ago I decided I would taper off the methadone. I got down to about 20mg then started experiencing extreme nausea and anxiety in the morning many times resulting in me vomiting my methadone dose for the day. On or about 12/30/2020, was the worst one of those days. I could not stop vomiting and had to go to the ER. I was stabilized and the next day saw my methadone doctor and ceased the tapering. I am back on 50mg and I feel like I am trapped with this ball and chain forever. I pray everyday, that one day I am blessed to  have this treatment and start living a NEW free and clean healthy life. I love working out and the outdoors. I just got engaged. I feel somedays like I can't live like this forever. In other words, I want to live a long life. I don't see methadone taking me there. Thank you for this opportunity. Sincerely, Jonathan Maden