Good afternoon! My name is Stefanie Barnett, I am a 38 year old female. I have been using opiates for about 17 years with a few breaks in the years (2005-2007) and the reason and only strength came from those being the years I was pregnant and breast feeding my two children. I honestly don't know how I did it but when I found out I was pregnant I was able to stop all my bad habits because the thought of hurting them gave me a strength I didn't know I had. but now I am at a point in my life that I just am so tired and want a normal life. I owe this to my children, to give them the mom they have always deserved. I have tried to get clean many many times and have but the relapse is just over and over I am done with this feeling of having to feel like crap. The feeling of being weak, sick with stomach ache , sadness, depressed,   