I have tried to come off of opiods after using them for almost 20 years I went to the methadone clinic and started methadone where I stayed for 5 to 6 years and tried many upon many times to quit but my withdrawal symptoms were too strong and I was still using at times while at the clinic then I switched to bupenorphine and was on it for a few years then switched doctors and got on strips cause I couldn't come off bupe cause withdraws were too bad and then strips I was on for a few years and I just for the 3rd day now have had the injection of the sublocade and I don't know how I feel about it I do not like having the hard lump in my body I feel like its a crazy thing to do in the first place I just to be free of all of this my son deserves to see a life free of all of this I don't want him to think this is normal and I hate my life this way. I can't live this way anymore im not happy im depressed I can't live I stay in the bed everyday and never get up unless to go to the doctor im always depressed and angry and tired and sick and hot or cold or not feeling good and I can't even take my son outside and play I need help I want help and I need out of this life I got myself into 