i was on Methadone for 3 years, with out any slip ups - i was able to establish a normal life again, gaining take homes etc. finally felt like a 'normal' person again- i was able to go back to school, start working again, pursuing my passion of becoming a Yoga Teacher and Reiki Healer, took many certification courses, and even visited southern Cali to take a dream training, learning more to help others- heal from there trauma and addictions- On Aug 28th 2020 I moved closer to one of my favorite Cities of Philly and switched Methadone Centers.. after doing so my  my intake date got put in the system incorrectly, leaving me with no medication- i was scared and started to experience withdrawls, i didnt no what else todo- i was looking for percocets to get through the day, which was not succussful, and got 2 bags of Herion instead... after that i found my self slowy but surely randomly seeing my dealer, which eventually turned into me using daily beginning about Sept/Oct day after day, like a time warp- so much guilt and shame began to creep back in- after 3 years of rebuilding my life, and now living this double life... I eventually decided to step away from the methadone clinic for good on 11/13/2020 and said okay, il use for 10 days to get the methadone out of my system- then i went to a doctor to switch over to Suboxin on 11/23 ...and i tried to detox from home, which was unsuccussful - taking the Suboxin too soon, bringing me into pre withdrawls, which i then turned to using Herion again to fuction.. to be able to not be sick and get through my daily responsiabilities - iv realized i cannot do it alone. Even with the false reality of the strong foundation i though i had built over the past 3 years (being on methadone) i cannot live this double life any longer!  Iv been using since Sept 2020 increasingly having to use more and more everyday until present day..  when i went to the suboxin doctor and got drug screened Herion / fentanyl  came up in my system, along with Xanax, which i am currently perscribed, although i use more xanax then daily perscribed dose and find myself running short every month.. 