After losing my father three years ago, I went through a short period of heroin dependence. I went through detox( 2 years ago)and have been on Subutex ever since. I lost my Beautiful 28-year-old son to a fentanyl overdose last March and my husband last May. I’m also hooked on Xanax since then. I let them put me on Cymbalta then. I feel like I’m losing my mind. I don’t know if it’s still grief. I feel that I need some Xanax to cope. Mainly I don’t want to be hooked on Subutex anymore. I’m just really afraid of withdrawal.