I have been abusing tramadol for 15years...I also abuse gabapentin when I'm out of tramadol and then take exstemly large dosses of Keatom when out of both other meds,I struggle every day trying to find drugs pills anything to aid in the withdrawal.i can't stop taking the meds and are always craving them and I have such bad withdrawal s that don't stop until I get my meds.i am super stressed out all the time,panic attack s and never feel happy I have no hobbies or energy for them.i have no friends because of anxiety , can't enjoy anything anymore, and all I feel is sadness and dispar.ive pushed my family away and don't go anywhere unless I'm on my meds.constant feet of running out ...that's all I have in life .. constantly abusing my meds and it's ruined my life