I suffer from multiple breaks and have Osteoporosis.....I have had 3 vertebrae’s of which 2 were shattered compound fractures And 1 was 20% fractured... I have also broken my left hip and left femur which now I have rods to hold them together during that accident I also broke my right wrist... since this has all happened I live every day in pain and some days in Excruciating pain to where I cannot walk... I would love to be able to not have to take any pain medication on a daily basis and have tried multiple times to get off the obiates with that being said I I have stopped seeing doctors and have gone to the black market to be able to buy my pain medications Which is very very expensive! The reason I have stopped seeing doctors is because I walked into a doctors office one day saw a doctor for less than two minutes and she put into my record that I was high risk for opioid abuse and have a test in the past where I tested positive for cocaine which I do not even take ... I do Believe that this test came up as a false positive or was mixed up with somebody else’s Urine... when that test was given to me I had just gotten out of the hospital again for a bleeding ulcer to colitis episode and was very ill at that time I beg the doctor to retake it and he insisted for me to go and see a psychiatrist.... this happened 2 1/2 years ago and since then the doctor I saw fit about 2 mins which was about a year ago put all of this information into my chart and I have not been able to see a doctor that cares about my pain or even want to try to help me.... May I also add that within the last 15 months i use to be 5 foot 7 1/2 inches and now I am 5 foot 4 and shrinking... I would like to try to try to get off these medications and see if there is anybody out there that will help me for my health and not judge me for something that I have not done... I feel maybe this is a start and there might be better alternatives?  I also do you know if I do not get any type of help for my pain and stop being judged for something I have not done and this does sound bad but I have thoughts of suicide..I also do you know if I do not get any type of help for my pain and stop being judged for something I have not done and this does sound bad but I have thoughts of suicide...... somebody out there needs to help me and if I don’t try to get off of these meds to see if maybe I am the crazy one about my pain? or if the medical society has just completely Done me wrong because some NA thought she was above my needs and for done strange reason thought I was faking it? 